i can at least say a lot has changed.
who knows if it's for the better...

but i'm trying to adapt.
there's nowhere i can go anymore...

i miss how i used to be able to open up. it wasn't necessarily good. embarrassing in fact when i look back at my old poetry... but at least it was honest.

now i'm 22 years old... and about to move to colorado...
wishing i had a friend in the world that i could hold onto.
Just Kodi... it's always been her.

i'm back in school...
going to Pike's Peak this fall *(if i can ever get to colorado) spring at the latest.
can't wait to live out there, and just let this shit go.
i think i will miss people...
what's weird.. is that the people i will miss aren't the people i thought i would the most, b/c i've spent the last year trying to convince myself they didn't matter to me anymore, b/c if they did, it would hurt too bad to acknowledge how badly i hurt them, and how they've completely shut me out.

now all these new friends... while they were perfect timing when i needed them...
are not life-long friends.. not people i have carried and will carry with me my whole life.
all i can think about is the 7.
and how badly i'd love to get together with all of them.
Guess i could arrange that with a couple simple phone calls. eh? i'll give that a try.


i miss some folks...
and i'm tired of living in anger.. and living in the past..

lets move forward, shall we?
i'm in.

cheers!